I don't want to close my eyes.... I don't want to fall asleep....

Actually not really...sleep would be FABULOUS but you know you don't get anything done...but then why do we feel that we have to be constantly doing something ALL THE TIME??? If someone decided to take a nap rather than study or write a paper...they are thought of as lazy...we keep ourselves SO BUSY that we don't have time for ourselves...to RELAx...to just CHILL...and that's why so many people are stressed and going psycho because then they are trying to worry about a bazillion things at once....and then you have to be put on the drugs...so despite the advancement of technology, things are about the same compared to 100 years ago...we may have gotten rid of some diseases like TB or yellow fever...but now we also have Parkinsons...and carpal tunnel syndrome...and heart disease is the #1 killer these days...all because of STRESS!!1

I just flipped my calendar!! It now has a picture of Rainbow Falls in Hawaii instead of the White house. Speaking of D.C. i may be going there for spring break...may be visitin family up there...although so many others are trying to get me to come everywhere else...Destin, Atlanta....Tallahassee...just ms. popular i guess...tee hee

I usually don't post twice in a day..but i felt the need to say that i had a fabulous weekend. I went home with Matt...he came up here on a surprise visit. It was nice getting to spend time with him and my family.

Still really sore and now my back hurts...oy

So here's what's up with Randa for the rest of the week...or the rest of the month..i'm just reading what i have written on my calendar so far

I'm trying to work on this rough draft for English about my conspiracy theory about the Skull and Bones secret society at Yale...

I have a Chemistry test on Thursday...

We have Sig Ep party Gras stuff all week for their philantrophy to support Youth Aids so there's going to be a 20s themed party on Thursday! woo hoo for that

Next week is I-Week...so we get to initiate our lovely new Gamma Psis! But that also means no boys and no booze...meh it shouldn't be ThAt hard...lol

Step show is on the 16th! super exciting

Racer Regatta is on the 19th..and my roomie Breck will be competing

A lot of people are on spring break next week....

Matt's is the next week

And mine is from the 19th-27th....

Meh...i'm going to be productive now

Peace out

Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away....

The Goddess of Roses and Love. You are a hopeless
romantic. Always optimistic and loving, you
have many friends and you are exceptionally
trustworthy. You are a innocent beauty.


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So according to Sigmund Freud (the guy that i was dating last week...it's ok though i think i'm almost getting sick of him though he is fairly interesting...) there are three things that makes humans unhappy. The first being the weather and all it's natural elemental tortures, the second being ourselves since we tend to deteriorate and are in a constant battle with ourselves, and perhaps the most important thing that makes us unhappy is our relationships with other humans.

Well...(such a deep subject for a shallow mind...) the weather is definitely making me unhappy. Yesterday was gorgeous...i even wore a skirt and shorts later to play soccer..and now it's FREEZING...the wind is so harsh...

I'm always in a battle with myself..but then everyone else is too...we are our own worst enemy...

Interactions with other humans can make us happy but at the same time it's those superficial acquaintances that can make one lonely if one has no real sense of connection...it's also very stressful trying to maintain relationships especially when there are feelings involved.

Speaking of soccer, I played yesterday for the first time in..i don't know how long. It was great-we played with a bunch of Lizzo kids and some international students. I actually got to touch the ball a few times so that was exciting. The only thing is i'm so sore today because i hadn't done that in a while..and then i was trying to block this one ball...and the guy kicked it really hard and i caught it with my stomach....ugh so it hurts to even stretch...but it's a good kind of sore...at least now i know the muscles there still work...

I really don't want to go to class anymore...blah but alas i must don my big red poofy jacket and brace myself once again for the harsh Murray winds.....

Peace out

Song quote of the day:

And it hurts to want everything
and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and i want what's mine
I want you but i'm not giving in this time...

-Michelle Branch

Libra - Your Love Profile Your positive traits: You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully! You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out. You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person. Your negative traits: You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it. You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date... You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself. Your ideal partner: A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to. Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner. Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense. Your dating style: Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars. Your seduction style: Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own. Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough. Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love. Tips for the future: Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes. Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so. Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did. Best place to meet someone online: Platinum Romance - the best place to meet other singles who love romance as much as you do Best color to attract mate: Green Best day for a date: Wednesday Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

So at the time when i OUGHT to be doing something else other than taking silly quizzes online, guess which one i chose to do? it's really funny about these horoscope things though. Like most descriptions that i read about Libras actually kind of pertain to me....so does our astrological sign really have that much of a role in determining the type of people we are? I read other signs and they definitely are not me...but they descriptions are fairly universal..i wonder if anyone else feels the same way? THoughts? comments? BTW the comment button is there for a reason...so USE IT!! So the typical Libra likes balance (hence the scales..) which i definitely like. i just want everyone to get along and like each other and give each other hugs....haha but only if you're into that kind of thing...which i totally am!! We're hopeless romantics and very social people...yea..that hits about right.... Anyway...i'm going to peace out because i need to be productive....

Til next time,
Randa Gilanne

Running in circles...chasing tails....

So i woke up this morning and was really irritated but then i thought about it and the reason that i was irritated was silly. Well i mean i wake up and the first thing i hear is breck asking me if she can borrow this one shirt...which is usually fine, but it was kind of a dressy shirt...i couldn't fathom why she would want to wear it when it's 30 degrees outside..and it's just not something i would normally wear on a day to day basis...i like to save some things for special occasions i guess...i mean i told her she could borrow it, but there are just some things that i like to keep to myself...i guess to make it just me...but then i thought about it and i guess i was just annoyed because it seems like she's always borrowing my stuff.... but then again i could look at it for another angle and i guess i could be flattered because in a way imitation is the best way of flattery...or some other thing like that...anyway...*BREATHES OUT*

I have a new favorite poptart flavor..it's the chocolate caramel one...and I also fancy the creamy chicken ramen noodles....yeaaaa...i'm a college student...

I really should go to bed earlier...can't stay awake in my classes....silly chemistry kept me up pretty much all night...it's just that i've been trying to sort so many things out...and right now...i really need to stop thinking and just..think about Randa for once...of course i say that and that probably doesn't make sense because really....we spend most of our time thinking about ourselves...whether we like to admit it or not..i mean...we think about what we WANT or what we FEEL like we SHOULD do. Ah the constant battle between wants and needs..and obligations....it will never end. But really we..and when i say we, i'm referring to humans in particular...it may not apply to you personally, but at least this is what i think...but we tend to just go through each day just acting out the motions that it seems really routine...we never really stop and think and contemplate about what we REALLY want. That could just be me...because i tend to overanalyze every single thing....blahhhhh see what i mean? I'm going to stop before i get to the point where i don't make sense and i'm just rambling....o wait..too late........

Song of the moment: "Ten minutes ago" from Rodgers and Hammerstein's Cinderella

Quote of the day: "Whenver people complain about life being hard, i'm always tempted to ask as compared to what?"

don't remember who said this exactly..i think i got it from a Murray State planner.....

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road...

ROAD LESS TRAVELED

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth

Then took the other as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet, knowing how way leads onto way
I doubted if I should ever come back

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence
Two roads diverged in a wood
And I took the one less traveled by
And that has made all the difference


Robert Frost

I know it probably sounds cliche, but this is one of my favorite poems, simply because it can be applied to ANYTHING...to LIFE in general. I remember this was the poem for my senior class of 16 students. We did take the road less traveled, i mean we got crap on why we wanted to ever switch schools our senior year, but it was DEFINITELY worth it. life is all about crossroads and forks in the road. Too bad you can't clone yourself and see the many outcomes of where the roads will lead you. Or become a nun and move into a cave with tigers and bears...lol sorry that was random.

But really if you think about it...that's what living is all about. Taking chances, taking risks, taking a jump....if nobody ever jumped, we would all be the same, and that would be very boring. We would never be able to learn...to grow...to ..LIVE..

I absolutely admire my mom. She definitely took many jumps in her life. I mean..can you imagine travelling to another country at 19 years old...and working there..? She had just gotten her nursing degree, and one day she decided to go to Saudi Arabia..just because she felt like it...She didn't tell my grandparents until she was fixing to leave, and she sent them a telegram saying she was going to work in Saudi. By that point, they couldn't do anything..i mean what can you do? so they just sent her some money...and she boarded that plane...and the rest is history. Mom meets dad...and along comes Randa Gilanne..She was 19...I'm 19..and...I can't say I would even have the courage to do something like that. Another thing is just deciding to come to America. She was thinking about the future. Her future..my whole family's future...She took that jump to leave something familiar..and totally landed on completely unfamiliar territory. And for that, i am thankful..I am...blessed...i truly am. It is very easy to forget how lucky we are, but when you find the time, think of how good life is and count your blessings. It just makes you more...appreciative of every little thing.

Well i hope i didn't bore you...i just felt like i had to say this.

And so to finish the title of this post...

Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right,
I hope you had the time of your life.

-Green Day, "Time of Your Life"

Until next time

Thanks for tuning in to my random philosophical moments

Because i'm five foot two, i want to dance with you, and i'm sophisticated fun....

Actually i'm not 5'2..i'm 5'0...actually not even that...i'm 4'11 1/2....but you know..it doesn't really rhyme so whatever

Had a fabulous time last night dancing my butt off at the Sig Ep house. But then you know me i like to dance. O yea and i can still shoot some hoops...with 3 inch heels on. Yessssss!

So today it's very spring like...it's gorgeous but the wind is slightly chilly. Yay for only having 2 classes today. My philosophy class got cancelled since my professor was going to be out of town. And it's going to be like that for the next 3 weeks...Wahoo. I totally fell asleep in English again today...i really...dislike that class very much. I never know what's going on, and my teacher has been sick for like a week...and so someone else is trying to teach us, but we're still expected to do what we were supposed to do..but it's kind of hard when someone tells you one thing and another person tries to teach you another way...blahhhhhhh

I still have random people coming up to me and telling me they loved Vagina Monologues, and for the past few days, most of em have been guys....hmmmmm...indeed...

So life here is good..i'm pretty happy...for the most part. There have been plenty of random moments, but this is the time to experience randomness. One has to realize that we are not given tomorrow and although we need to have some sort of idea for the future, our lives should not be totally consumed by it. This is the present. So..LIVE in it!! Ok..so i'm getting kinda philosophical..um yea i have to give a tour so i'm peacing out.

Till next time

Stolen quote of the day: You don't get to choose who you fall in love with and you get this person who is all wrong and all right at the same time. And you know you love them so much except sometimes they just drive you completely insane and no one can explain it. And the reason why it's so confusing is because it's love, but if love didn't have any challenges, then what would be the point?

Well the Vagina Monologues was certainly a hit last night! it was a packed, we sold all 326 tickets, maybe more, and we made $2500 which all go to our fabulous underfunded Womens' Center. I have random people coming up to me and said they loved it and that i did good. Certainly an interesting way to spend your Valentine's DAy.

I should be studying, I should be studying....haha...

Well i have a dresser full of flowers, they certainly make the room lovely.

It's a GORGEOuS day today!!! Can't get over it.

I seem to have these close to perfect days....ahhh life is good

Tonight is the Murray State vs. UT Martin game..and Sigma has FLOOR
seATS!!!! Who will prevail??

Well i'm going to look over some stuff...have a lovely lovely day.

Till next time,
Randa Gilanne

Song quote of the day:

"Everybody thinks that everybody knows about everybody else...nobody knows anything about themselves because they're all worried about everybody else."

-Jack Johnson

i'm addicted to these....

cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed


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So this is the last one for valentine's day, i promise! what, it only comes once a year!!

VdAy was awesome!! We had a full house and sold all 326 tickets, maybe more. We made somewhere around $2500. Not too bad! The audience and the energy was just great. And we all looked so damn sexy....ooh lala indeed. It was also gorgeous outside all day, and that made me happy. So today there were lots of silly cute things that people were doing like "Fight for your love" which was hosted by the fencing team..twas kinda cute. And they had it where you could doodle on the sidewalk..."Make love on the sidewalk" they called it. blahhhhhh i have 2 tests tomorrow...and i feel so unmotivated right now...someone talk some sense into me...all i want to do is just lie down and engage in deep sleep...but that won't be happening anytime soon...:-(

I got flowers from Matt, Brittaney, Becca, and my parents from last night. So i have a whole dresser full of roses...they certainly make the room more beautiful! Meh...ok i'm peacing out...

Till next Valentine's DAy...or till whenever i post again....

Yet another Vday type quiz thing.....

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover

You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires. And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek. You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships. It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

You Are A Realistic Romantic

You are more romantic than 70% of the population. It's easy for you to get swept away by romance... But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective. You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

In honor of Valentine's Day....

youre soft on the inside but have a protective
shell so you dont melt for all things
sentimental. while youre not going to forget
what's important to you, youre also open to
romance in whatever form it might take. youll
hav an amazing vday, whether you spend it w/ a
cute boy, or hav a girls' night out.

how romantic are you?
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Wahoo for having a good time on Vday...i personally will be in the Vagina Monologues, so come see me!!!

Twas good getting to see my parents tonight even though it was only for a short while. Makes you realize even more how blessed i am to have such wonderful supportive parents and that I miss em. Dress rehearsal went well, can't wait for tomorrow on the actual vday! Happy for the show to go on, kinda sad that it's over, but relieved that it will be....so now i can concentrate on other stuff..like school and whatnot.

Gah my roommate and i are complete opposites when it comes to sleeping habits...i would rather stay up and get work done, she'd rather wake up early...it's kind of annoying...and she borrows a lot of my stuff...it doesn't bother me...i mean we all pretty much borrow each other's stuff....but....it gets annoying when she has the exact same thing...like...a computer...or...moisturizer....i could just be paranoid...or i could just be annoyed right now becuase i had to take out someone's laundry....GAH people watch your time!!!

Well well Randa is going to be productive...hope everyone has an excellent Valentine's Day..or Single Awareness or whatever you prefer to call it...

Peace out

These are the days that bring you meaning...I feel the stillness of the sun, and i feel fine....

Yay for Jamie Cullum...

This is TOTALLY ME...lol...




Raver Bear


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Ahhhh....life is so randomly beautiful. How so? It's beautiful when the sun is out and you realize how lucky you are to be alive and enjoying BEING alive. Randomness adds that extra flare which helps to create even more memories....*sigh* I don't know what got into me...just...i love life :-)

Wahoo for Murray State basketball! We totally kicked Austin Peay's butts! Even though we were down like 17 points in the first half, we ended up winning with a 10 point lead! Needless to say, it was an exciting game.

Hmmm...so nothin much going on....lol...

Go see the movie Hitch!! Definitely worth it. I felt like the movie was talking to me at various parts...lol

Woo hoo for the Vagina Monologues!!! tomorrow is pretty much an all day practice with a pre-performance tomorrow night. My parents are coming!!! Can't wait!!

Oy...i need to do some studying..my brain needs to be stimulated anyway...

Peace out

Come fly with me, let's fly, let's fly away.....

Fabulous...i caught the cold bug and now i have a scratchy throat and some congestion...lovely. Hopefully this will all clear up before Vday, since we are performing The Vagina Monologues. This week is going to be fairly hectic with rehearsals and what not, plus 2 tests next week.

Well this is the shortest post ever in the history of Randa's Random Rantings. Unfortunately i have to brace myself once again and venture out into the cold winds of Murray for my last class of the day. More to come later

Current mood: Slightly sick and thoughtful
Current weather: Windy and cold
Pick up line of the day: You are the reason men fall in love.

P.S. Soap operas amuse me.

And with the sun in the morning and the moon in the evening, I'm alRight!!

Audrey Hepburn was asked to share "beauty tips" and wrote the following:

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others. The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides. The beauty of a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows.

Last night, i was lucky enough to get invited to the Sig Ep smoker. It was really nice...and it was fun getting dressed up and seeing everyone dressed up. I guess it really surprises people when i actually make an attempt to look nice...I really do enjoy dressing up i promise even though I look like a bum on most days...But i got plenty of compliments, which is always nice to hear...I think the funniest one though came from Danny O...he said i looked like a "Filipino fairy princess"...so...yay for that i guess :-) of course we took pictures galore, and it was nice getting to see my grand-big, Courtney again! But see the thing about pictures, is that years later when i look back at these pictures, even if the people in them changed, the pictures don't, and you'll always have that memory of them....
So afterwards a bunch of us decided to go see the Boogeyman...whose idea it was i do not know..but ...OMG it was TOTALLY the best movie of the year...no not really it TOTALLY SUCKED..so don't go see it...Maybe i'll get to see The Phantom of the Opera or The Wedding Date with mah girls tonight to make up for it...

It is a B-E-A-U-tiful day outside...i may even get motivated enough to actually go for a run...hmmm that is once i do all these little chores like cleaning and homework and what not...yea you can tell it's definitely warming up...the damn ladybuygs are back....

Yesterday Rosie and I were supposed to give a campus tour, but our people never showed up...They sure missed out on the Rondi and Rosie tour...but it's cool it's cool...

Well i'm going to make an attempt to do my chores...hope everyone has a lovely day!

At last, my love has come along....my lonely days are over...and life is like a song...

Well well well, so today i took my first chemistry test of the semester...i don't think i did TOO shabbily on it...*crosses fingers* i guess we'll find out tomorrow...

I've been tired as of late...prolly cuz of my hot date...he kept me up all night...his first name is Chem, last name, Istry. It was too good of a date to pass up. Can you imagine..i was with him from about five in the afternoon yesterday till about 2 in the morning...ah such is life... I have a feeling he's a keeper..at least for this semester anyway... I'll be sure to update on this interesting little situation....since it's the match of the semester...(Watch out matt...i have a feeling this guy and i may do a little ...bonding...)

Because Mr. Istry kept me up all night, i kinda just went through today...like i know i was here but i felt like i wasn't here...mentally my mind was somewhere else..It just seemed like i was just going through the motions and kind of oblivious to everything else...people who probably saw me today could probably see the weary expression on my face...either that or i hid it very well... but i'm usually a fairly happy/energetic person...

Hung around at the Sig Ep house for dodgeball and BBQ..fairly fun..met some of their future (maybe) Sig Eps...

So everyone is reading the book "He's just not that into you" Remind me to try to buy a copy of the book...or find one or borrow or whatever..i've heard it's an interesting insight to the mystery that is men...we're all enigmatic in our own ways i guess..makes life more intriguing

Supposed to revising my analysis to MLK Jr's Letter from Birmingham Jail...i think i'm just going to say screw it..and see what they have to say already about my paper so far tomorrow in class...

On that note, i think i'm going to try to find my bed underneath the hodgepodge

Good night world

P.S. So my Grandma, Aunt Jo, Aunt Gwen and her fiance Rod are all leaving in about five hours to fly internationally from Toronto to somewhere fantastic in the Caribbean...Lucky...Let's all wish them a safe and relaxing trip...and that they have fun while they bask in the 80 something degree weather with their toes buried in the white sugar-like sand.....*sigh*

O yea another thing, Happy Birthday Cristina!! Yay for the big 1-9!!