in my own little corner, in my own little chair....

Sometimes we are too involved with our own worlds and ourselves that we tune other people out and forget that there is a bigger world out there than just my little Randa World

Something bigger than my dorm room at Murray State University in Murray, Kentucky, USA

Is it possible to be surrounded by friends, yet feel so alone at the same time?

I really keep forgetting that i'm supposed to be an "adult." I really don't think i'll ever know what that word is. Right now i still feel like a kid. It really is a strange paradox.

There are worse things than not getting any sleep..or having to wake up at the butt crack of dawn to schedule for classes. I should be thankful that i am even allowed to schedule for a class..i should be thankful that i am able to get an education so that i may have a better future for myself. In fact, i shouldn't just be thankful...i should feel blessed.

Life really is just too short...you just never know what might happen. We will never know when the end will come, for all we know, it could all end tomorrow. I don't mean to be such a downer, but i'm just being realistic. I think my problem is that i'm too optimistic and that i always try to search for the good in people. That really screws up my perception of people sometimes because, as we all know, that every story doesn't always have happy endings and that humans are corrupt in some way. Why do bad things happen to good people? But i guess if everything was good, we would never be able to learn and mature.

I feel like i should be at home. I hear of things that are happening at home that just make me cry. I wish there was something i could do but some things will never change, and you just can't change people.

I should be packing and cleaning instead of whining about my problems that no one ever really reads anyway.

*SIGH*

There are so many things in life that i want to accomplish and experience, but I feel as if there's not enough time to do ANYTHING. I don't think i'm depressed. But lately i've been kind of down and apathetic. Hmm...

Well i'm heading out to St. Louis tomorrow morning. Should be an exciting weekend. I feel as if there are things holding me back from me being myself. Or sometimes i just talk and don't really know what i'm talking about. I have that stream of conscious thing that James Joyce became famous for.

O well. i'm going to go pack and finish the remaining rice and curry.

peace