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I love it how there's a song for every emotion....well...i found a song to fit my current mood....Simple Plan's "Perfect"

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make itI just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend thatI'm alright
And you can't change me'
Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard Just to talk to you But you don't understand


I'm excited for the much needed Thanksgiving break....but yet at the same time i DON'T want to go home.....*Sigh*................. but i guess i can't keep avoiding him and keep acting scared of him...i'm not...trust me i've been trying just to get him to talk to me.....but honestly it's been three weeks..and this is getting ridiculous. He and my mom don't talk either........and it breaks my heart to think that it's my parents 20th anniversary next week and they probably won't even speak to each other that day..........BLAH It's so sad and just makes me want to cry even more just typing this out....i can't let this affect me but how can i not? I know i have to prove myself to him and i guess that's the only way i can ever get that trust back..but honestly i'm trying..........i don't know what else to do...and it's not even over something HUGE...it's really trivial...in fact you'd probably laugh if i told you the reason why my dad is not speaking to me but to him it's so much bigger than that.....i can see where he's coming from....but at the same time i keep thinking that this whole situation is getting completely out of hand....but of course he won't concede.....because he's NEVER wrong................*SIGH* again............

Good night to all

Thank you to everyone who has touched my life...you may not know it ...but I appreciate everything that you have done for me....if i don't ever get to tell you ...I LOVE YOU

So to be honest....

Do i see myself being a GOOD doctor?
Do i see myself being a GREAT doctor?
Do i see myself being an OUTSTANDING doctor?

Why am i not so sure now.................i could always say ...yea there's a possibility......but if i can only say that....then maybe it was not meant to be........*SIGH*

"I was just guessing numbers and figures..pulling the puzzles apart....questions of science..science and progress....do not speak loud as my heart..."

AH...nobody said it would be easy indeed

I would so marry Frank Sinatra in a heartbeat...only if he'd sing me to sleep.....

Peace out