funny

It's funny how easily one gets annoyed when running on 4 hours of sleep and typing a biology rough draft research paper....just today in general...well mostly my night i've been just irritated at the slightest things..i feel as if a trainload of emotions are going through me...like i've been short-tempered....basically just annoyed and i don't even know why...I feel as if i'm the only caring about anybody and no one is caring about me...i shouldn't even feel that way because i have the best family and friends i could ever ask for....but why is it that while i'm surrounded by multitudes of people...i feel so ...alone? On the one hand it could just be the lack of sleep that i have been suffering from..but basically it's just from me being retarded and just staying up....because i'm such an insomniac..but i really do think that it's affecting me...

One of my flaws is that i care too much...i care so much about the people that i love that sometimes i don't even recognize my own problems or needs...but i guess that's better than being apathetic to everything and not taking a stance...which according to Dante, is the worst fate of all fates because in his hell, one would get stung by wasps repeatedly and their "tears would be met by the worms below" Haha..one thing that Faye Hardin gave me was Dante and his version of hell

.....hah..i was just reading the results from the Myers-Briggs Type Inventory Personality Test Thingie...and haha...ok here goes.."Possible Causes of Stress" include: May be sensitive to indifference from others, May give their all in service and expect others to do the same, May take care of others and neglect own needs.....so..i guess i know myself pretty well then...
Here's how i deal with stress..or how i should anyway....I naturally rely on family and friends, naturally give their personal best to any task, must be careful not to expect everyone else to share their high standards, must pay close attention to own needs.....hmmm...kinda makes you think....for example when you ask someone how they are...do you really care? No..because in our society today, it's more of a formality and just a matter of being polite....i mean..i do it...don't get me wrong...but it's just an observation that i've made....and then when you say the hi how are you's and the good thanks and you's....there's that awkward silence that you can't seem to get rid of...same as riding in elevators....it's funny how the more people are in an elevator, the less likely they are to talk amongst themselves...and there's just this really long awkward silence....

anyway....i'm peacing out for now...sorry it must be the sleep talking....