Just for fun

1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (Name of first pet / Street you grew up on): Crystal Campbell
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (Name of your favorite snack food / Grandfather's first name): PB Narcisso (Peanut Butter)
3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (First word you see on your left / Favorite restaurant): Happy Chilis
4. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS: (Favorite Spice / Last Foreign Vacation Spot): Rosemary Quebec
5. SOCIALITE ALIAS: (Silliest Childhood Nickname / Favorite City): Kakong Toronto
6. "FLY Boy" ALIAS (a la J. Lo): (First Initial / First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name): R. Go
7. ICON ALIAS: (Something Sweet Within Sight / Any Liquid in Your Kitchen): Pep Nestea (peppermints)
8. DETECTIVE ALIAS: (Favorite Baby Animal / Where You Went to High School): Tiger Madison
9. BARFLY ALIAS: (Last Snack Food You Ate / Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink): Crackers Colada
10. SOAP OPERA ALIAS: (Middle Name / Street Where You Live): Gilanne Glenhurst
11. ROCK STAR ALIAS: (Favorite Candy / Last Name Of Favorite Musician): Snickers Sinatra
12. BOND MALE NAME: (First noun in first advertisement you see/ last place you were wounded(bruise, paper cut, etc.) Whiskey Palm

OMG KEN JENNINGS HAS BEEN DETHRONED!!!!

STREAK'S END: Ken Jennings finally meets his match, losing on "Jeopardy!" after winning 74 straight games, in an episode televised Tuesday.
TAX TIME: The Salt Lake City quiz whiz, who had won more than $2.5 million, was tripped up during a "Final Jeopardy" query about tax preparer H&R Block. Now that he's in a new tax bracket, H&R Block is offering to prepare his returns free for life.
THE BIG ONE: Jennings is the biggest money-winner in television game show history.
THE VICTOR: Nancy Zerg, a real estate agent from Ventura, Calif., is the contestant who finally beat him.

It's bout time...it was getting kinda boring watching him..but man...where do you pick up random info?? I bet he was a academic decathlete.....

2 more weeks of school!!! Happy to get this semester over with....but it's going to be INSANE during finals....

Well headin over to get some grub with a sistah....peace out

SWEET HOME JACKSON TN

So i've been in Jackson since Tuesday and loving it, but then at the same time it's like i'm almost ready to go back to Murray.

It's been wonderful kicking back and spending time with family and just catching up with my girls and guys who are in town. It's so funny how much more "adult" we all seem. I still can't get over it. In a way i still really feel like a little kid. I saw my old band director from middle school and he says that i haven't changed much, (height wise anyway), but that i sound more mature. Considering i've given up on the whole height thing, i could only hope that i am more "mature."

I really should be doing some work and getting some stuff done...instead of writing this silly little journal entry...i have a paper due on henry V...which....is blah on itself...and i have a chem quiz on tuesday....but i guess that's what sunday is for.....maybe....no really i need to get some stuff done....

Tomorrow...well i guess later tonight, my parents are having a japanese themed dinner and matt's coming over, and leslie, my bro's gf is coming as well. That should be fun, although i don't know how much more i can eat. I've been eating non stop....let's hope i can still fit in that dress for crush dance...I mean really, as soon as i got home, my dad went on a cooking frenzy and just kept giving me dishes to try....i didn't complain...i loved everything he cooks...just made it seem like i hadn't eaten in forever.....

The Los Portales here is really a lot better and cheaper than Murray's....but i'm biased i guess... Los just brings back so many memories for me with so many different people

Oy well i really have nothing else to say....hope you all enjoyed eating and getting fat as much as i did....get ready to kick it up again and end this semester!!

PEACE OUT

i love you tomorrow, you're always a day away

The sun will come out...TOMORROW...actually prob not..it's been cloudy all day but tomorrow i get to go home to lovely Jackson, TN!!! Exciting stuff!

I had a blast in St. Louis this weekend. We stayed at the Millenium Hotel and it was this circular hotel so we pretty much all stood in the balconies and waved and talked to each other. For dinner we went to eat at the revolving restaurant on the 28th floor of the hotel. (So i guess R means restaurant right? tee hee..) It was neat..it made one revolution for the time that we were there. The piano man started off right behind us but then by the time we ended he was on the other side by the elevators. It was fun playing name that tune though.

Chicago on broadway was awesome. Loved All that Jazz and the Cell Block Tango! So note to men: don't piss us off..or you might end up running into a knife...10 times....or have two warning shots...in your head....The Fox theatre was really elaborate. According to the Playbill it has a "Siamese Byzantine" design. It looked like something from Indiana Jones....

So after that we pretty much just chilled at the hotel...

So tonight is pretty much studying for chem quiz, packing...and we're having a Sigma bonfire..complete with hotdogs and...SMORE'S!!! yay for that!

SO until tomorrow comes, then that's pretty much the ordeal for Randa.

WHen i'm stuck in a day, that's gray and lonely, i just stick out my chin and grin and say...OH...the sun will come out tomorrow, so you've got to hang on till tomorrow, come what may.....
Tomorrow, Tomorrow, I love YA tomorrow...you're always a DAY AWAY!!!

Tee hee ok i'm being silly

EVERYONE TRAVEL SAFE AND HAVE A FANTABULOUS THANKSGIVING AND EAT LOTSA TURKEY AND SLEEP AND...(STUDY..AHEM) AND I WILL SEE YOU NEXT WEEK!!! LOVE YOU ALL!!

PEACE OUT

in my own little corner, in my own little chair....

Sometimes we are too involved with our own worlds and ourselves that we tune other people out and forget that there is a bigger world out there than just my little Randa World

Something bigger than my dorm room at Murray State University in Murray, Kentucky, USA

Is it possible to be surrounded by friends, yet feel so alone at the same time?

I really keep forgetting that i'm supposed to be an "adult." I really don't think i'll ever know what that word is. Right now i still feel like a kid. It really is a strange paradox.

There are worse things than not getting any sleep..or having to wake up at the butt crack of dawn to schedule for classes. I should be thankful that i am even allowed to schedule for a class..i should be thankful that i am able to get an education so that i may have a better future for myself. In fact, i shouldn't just be thankful...i should feel blessed.

Life really is just too short...you just never know what might happen. We will never know when the end will come, for all we know, it could all end tomorrow. I don't mean to be such a downer, but i'm just being realistic. I think my problem is that i'm too optimistic and that i always try to search for the good in people. That really screws up my perception of people sometimes because, as we all know, that every story doesn't always have happy endings and that humans are corrupt in some way. Why do bad things happen to good people? But i guess if everything was good, we would never be able to learn and mature.

I feel like i should be at home. I hear of things that are happening at home that just make me cry. I wish there was something i could do but some things will never change, and you just can't change people.

I should be packing and cleaning instead of whining about my problems that no one ever really reads anyway.

*SIGH*

There are so many things in life that i want to accomplish and experience, but I feel as if there's not enough time to do ANYTHING. I don't think i'm depressed. But lately i've been kind of down and apathetic. Hmm...

Well i'm heading out to St. Louis tomorrow morning. Should be an exciting weekend. I feel as if there are things holding me back from me being myself. Or sometimes i just talk and don't really know what i'm talking about. I have that stream of conscious thing that James Joyce became famous for.

O well. i'm going to go pack and finish the remaining rice and curry.

peace

Curry and Rice anyone?

Water. Whatever you do, where or when, you do it
with all of your heart. You listen to your
heart and all of your emotions are true
non-acting. Friends are very importent to you
and you will do anything for them. You're the
most dreamy of all 4 elements.


Just thought i'd add another pretty picture

So it's Thursday night, which means tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!! YAY!!

It also means:
-I get to wake up at 5 freakin o'clock in the morning in order to beat everyone else to the phone to call the friendly operators of racer touch to schedule my 18 hours of classes for next semester
-I have my Materials and Methods section due as part of my community research experiment for biology
-I also have a Biology Assessment on a Statistics problem
-I have a pretty much nonstop day tomorrow
-Mozz MTV Video Dance offs are tomorrow
-I have to do some housecleaning and some packing for ST LOUIS!!! (I'm sure i'll see signs of Meriwether Lewis and William Clark everywhere...muahaha)

I'm looking forward to this weekend...should be fun times! And then i get to go home!!! EVEN MORE YAY!!!

Ah...curry is very good with rice.... I thought i could last and fight the temptation..but no..i had a craving for rice today.....so partner that with curry that mom brought and that equals a very satisfied Randa

I got paid today!! (After a month but hey..late is better than...being pregnant...) Haha...i heard someone say that today...sorry couldn't resist...But yup...Randa has some deposit money!! YEA YEA!! All those times referreeing (is this a word..?) international students holding each others jerseys and pushing finally paid off! And a lot of em still call me Ms. Referee

I like mango...anything mango pretty much...especially mango body butter

It doesn't really matter what they believe..what matters to me is that you're in love with me :-) Yay for Janet Jackson

These damn ladybugs keep flying all over my stuff....i had to squish 2 already last night...looks like i'll have to do it again..i don't have a problem with them as long as they are on the ceiling....geez

AHH is it November or did i just not get the message? It's unusually warm...i'm not complaining..i'm just saying...but then it's still burning up in the dorms..i'm sitting here in shorts and a tank top and i'm still sweating...with the window open and the fan running.....

Ah well i'm going to do something productive other than typing out my life that none of you are interested in i'm sure

PEACE OUT

Voulez vous couche avec moi? Ce soir?

That's the song currently running through my head...don't know why...(i didn't call....)

My life is pretty much a jukebox that never stops playing..and it's always those songs that you haven't heard of in a while and the randomest songs that pop into my head that make you go "Huh?" or...in my case, "EH?" Lol...there was a shirt in Montreal that i should've gotten...it says EH on the front then under it it goes on to define "EH" I don't all remember what was on it, but the last part said, "And because EH is better than saying HUH..you don't sound as stupid" I thought that was really funny

Sigma A team won their game tonight!! Yay!! Tuesday game at 8:00!! Be THERE!!

Word on the street is that "Everything Happens for a Reason" You just...won't realize what that reason is until much much MUCH later....

The same goes for people. People are placed in your life for a purpose, but you won't find out what that purpose is until much much MUCH later. But to all the people who have been a part of my life, and the new friends that are beginning to be in my life here in Murray, thank you for being a part of my life. I don't mean to be such a sap but i felt i had to say that.

Another word on the street is that "Whatever is SUPPOSED to happen will happen." You can't keep expecting things to happen the way YOU want them to. It just happens, and there' s not much you can do to stop it....with all this uncertainty in life, one can only repeat that mantra over and over again.....

Ever notice how much more philosophic you sound when it's really late at night (or early in the morning?)

Well anyway, just felt like i had to get some say in before bed time

And remember:

"When the pimps try to get at you, walk it like it's hot."

*Dusts off shoulders*

Peace out world

Pangako sa iyo..ipaglalaban ko, sa hirap at ginahawa ng ating pag iibig
Upang di magkalayo kailanman....

Sorry, flashbacks of Filipino karaoke came to mind...

Peace out fo real

isn't it ironic

You are Confused Spice!
You're pretty undecided about...everything and you
wont just chose! Yeah it is fun to be confused
and You are the spice girl that sings about
very random and confusing things! (haha)


Just a little quiz fun..thought it would add to the randomness

My mom came yesterday and we had our little spa relaxation party. Seeing her just made me realize how much i miss her and home. We had our girly moments and just spent the day catching up and girly talking which is always fun. There's just a difference between Sigma girly talks and mom girly talks... I can't believe i almost went to school 8 hrs farther away.....i don't think i could've handled that at all. The good thing about Murray that i thought was horrible at first is that i know i can go home anytime if i needed to since i'm only an hour and a half away. I think her and my dad are getting better..which was FANTASTIC to hear. Everything is going to be better now.

I hung out with my big, grand big, and god-big last night. FUN TIMES and can we say RANDOM?? It was fun playing dress up and trying to see what to wear to formal. Then we just played random dress up and that was even more fun. We did get a couple of stares as we walked in Wal mart...oh i can't wait to get pictures. THERE WAS NOT A SINGLE DROP OF ALCOHOL, OR MARIJUANA INVOLVED. It was just us girls acting silly when left to our own devices. (That's what happens when boyfriends aren't in town...or working....)

Last night i also got to taste some FABULOUS international food. The International Students had a little potluck contest and we got to judge!! The Pad-Thai was EXCELLENT and it won 2nd place..they also had some Indian Daal, which is always good..they had tohm-yum too...and this incredible Death by chocolate, which my mom makes too. And THEY HAD RICE!!! Makes me happy :-)

So that was pretty much it then today i slept in for a little bit and did some cleaning up. I am most likely going to be spending the rest of my day at the library or at the study lounge. I need to start studying for finals...otherwise i'm going to feel completely overwhelmed and panicked....

The good news is that Miss Saigon is coming to Nashville. The bad news is that it's coming next week. Why couldn't it come over Thanksgiving break??? Hmmm...wonder if my parents would let me go to Cincinnati to watch it.....

I can't believe this semester is almost over....it's flown by so fast....but at the same time it feels like i've been here longer than just a few months....

I'm looking outside and there's this tree with the prettiest shade of red on the leaves....it's a gorgeous autumn day outside.

I'm really looking forward to St. Louis. Should be fun. Then i get to go home and see my mahal!! (and everyone else.....)

Sometimes i keep forgetting that i'm not a teenager anymore...i said something bout how people probably think we were "crazy teenagers" last night...but then brittaney's like...except you're the only one probably closest to being a teenager....and that struck me as odd....i keep forgetting that everyone around me is practically an adult....we sure don't act like it but hey...that's what "Making Memories" is all about :-)

Well i'm going to work on some sin and cosine...O how much i loathe thee....

PEACE OUT

DAMN CUBED

You're Manitoba. Security and family mean a lot to
you. You dream of the white picket fence and
the rest of the Norman Rockwell fantasy. You're
a little reluctant to rock the boat, which
could drain the colour out of life at times,
but you'd rather have that than not know what
tomorrow brings.

Tip to all the men reading this: If it's your anniversary don't think that today is the day before it and completely forget your anniversary. *SIGH* MEN...... That really PISSES me off.....But just the fact that i talked to him today and he even said he forgot......GRRRRRRR...I don't even know what to do anymore...but at least he and i are speaking now.............I just can't believe he would be so insensitive...i mean i know that you're a little forgetful as you get older..and that he's mad at the world or whatever but damn it....SO now my mom is at Perkins with my 2 brothers as we speak...and my dad is....sleeping........and i hate it that i can't be there with them...UGH..I want things to go back to normal......*SIGH*

This all means nothing to those who are reading this i'm sure....In fact, my life probably means nothing because really if you think about it.....even though i think my life is significant....you all don't, yet you all are captivated by the words that i type and the situations that i describe in my everyday life.....my life in only one among the other 99378264658294882661531 that are out there...and yet you choose to read mine...out of curiousity or just plain boredom.....

On TV they have these men dressed in red on wires on a tall building and they're..doing some SYNCHRONIZED DANCE......random.....

I stayed in tonight....waiting on my laundry and doing some housecleaning before my mom comes tomorrow

I like popping my fingers

I like Vanessa Carlton

I want to go skydiving someday

I want a wedding in a big church with bridesmaids and flower girls...a lot of ushers in tailcoats reporters and photographers..i. want a wedding like the Vanderbilts have..everything big not small..if i can't have that kind of a wedding i don't want to get married at all....

We'll have an old fashioned wedding...just like the good old fashioned way...i'll vow to love you forever...you'll vow to love and honor and obey...somewhere in some little chapel ...back where the dooryard lillies bloom....we'll have an old fashioned wedding..a simple wedding for an old fashioned bride and groom.....

Sorry random Annie Get Your Gun moments...AH good times...

Miss Saigon is coming to Nashville!! I don't know when but i just saw a commercial on it on tv!! I wanna see :-( Lea Salonga (the same Filipina who voiced "A Whole New World" from Aladdin and "Reflections" from Mulan) starred as Kim in Miss Saigon a long time ago....she's awesome

I want to go back to New York. I can't wait to go to Canada. I can't wait to get better grades. Yay for Thanksgiving being soon. BOO for finals coming up. I only have 17 meals left...hmm....

O haha i love walmart........So i'm checking out..my grand total is $6.48 which consisted of a 12 pack of Nestea and 2 boxes of Poptarts. So i have a gift card that i have no clue if there's anything left on it. SO i kindly ask the lady behind the counter to check the balance left on the card. So she does and informs me. The balance is $1.69. So at first i thought that was my total so i give her $2. Something on the screen says $4 something so i give her a $5 bill. So i get .52 cents back..and i'm like..uh..i gave you $7. Anyway....turns out she didn't use the $1.69 from the gift card...i was like what the hell..that's THE POINT of handing her the gift card.........and checking the balance of it.....and she's like well i can do it over but it'll take a long time... but by that time i was just amazed at her incapability of comprehending my actions so i just said screw it and whatever b/c there was a long line behind me.....but hey next time i go to walmart..i have $1.69 to my credit......I mean that is the point of getting a gift card right? To SPEND IT? Tell me if i'm completely wrong in thinking that........but whatever it's not a big deal.........wow though

Did you know Kentucky is the #1 toothless state? I didn't either until reps from UK came to speak about med/dental school (that's University of Kentucky btw, not United Kingdom :-) I was excited when they showed the med school curriculum...sounds like fun..but damn i have to work my ass off to EVEN get there......

Props to Kyle for playing the part of "Keiko" at the Alpha Gam Rock A Thon..and yay for the Sig Eps for winning the lip sync contest....let's get physical, physical...LOL FUN TIMES

It's Opening Season for Deer Hunting..how exciting....

If you do your laundry make sure you keep with the time...DON't LEAVE YOUR CLOTHES in the dryer after your 60 minutes of drying time is up because your clothes WILL get taken out...and i really don't feel like touching other people's underwear anymore..but that's what had to happen(that goes to the thoughtful girl doing laundry on the 8th floor..i mean what dorks do laundry on a friday night anyway.......) and i will do it if it happens again...Dont be INCONSIDERATE...geez

Well Sorry for the post being so long and for being a downer at the beginning.....can't help it
hope you are enlightened now

PEACE OUT

current mood: FRUSTRATED

You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit
with your friends and value everyone freidnship
you have. You're a real people person and
everyone loves how friendly you are. You're
good with encouraging people but usually don't
like to be the center of attention. You are a
social butterfly and probably are in several
circles of friends but it's just because you're
well liked and you make people comfortable.
You're both fun and wise but you are very
realistic about life.

El dinero no importa en ti y en mí, ni en el corazón

Selena's "Amor Prohibido" is the current song of right now as i type my life...

So money is not important to you or me, nor to the heart... of course it's not..that's why we have shows like "The Apprentice" or these other crazy shows like "Fear Factor" where you have to stick your head in a cage full of spiders to try to get keys to unlock that cages....but then there's also Jeopardy where Ken Jennings has currently banked over 2 million dollars......

I was watching Dr. Phil today and man, there are seriously some crazy people in this world....The main reason they were there today? Because they had problems with their self....This one girl was seriously ODing on diet pills...she was taking 24 pills a day.....she's lost 160 lbs..but she is also in danger of dying of a heart attack...then there was this woman on there yesterday who has been bulimic since high school...Her teeth are rotting from the acid that is thrown back up...i mean seriously.....Can't wait for tomorrow's episode...where this shop a holic spends $10,000 and her dad pays for it when she comes crying...and she doesn't think she's spoiled at all...she thinks she's "privileged".......WOW.....

So i did considerably well on my chem test....can't say the same for my trig test....i seriously felt like jumping off a tall building..but o wait..it's Murray....but there's always Lizzo..which is 9 floors....I'm KIDDING of course...but hey it's progress....in fact....Making progress is better than being great...it shows that you can learn..at least that's what my mahal told me

Right now i'm listening to Dean Martin....he's another one i would so marry if he'd sing me to sleep....

I cooked rice today..YAY :-)

I talked to my dad today....even better

We had open sisterhood tonight trying to watch Shrek 2 but no one really watched it..we all kinda just hung out..I got to talk to different girls...it kinda felt weird/cool being on the other side of the conversation....they were pretty much feeling how i was in august during recruitment....(Chim chiminy chim chiminy chim chim che ree) ...sorry that's running through my head now...
I've been in such a Disney mood today...but when am i never not? I listened to all these Disney movie songs from Little Mermaid, Aladdin, Mulan, and Snow White today.....guess that's why i got accepted to the Disney Internship program...but alas..as much as i'm a Disney freak....i am going to have to decline the offer...it would be a nice summer job, but i don't want to take off a semester...

I think i am going to take a shower now....yay for 7 freakin 30 in the morning chem labs

Oh and Nancy Elizabeth, I miss you too!!! Thanks for commenting..Now as for the rest of you......

Peace out

on my own..pretending he's beside me

Nothing like reminiscing about Les Mis..AH fun times...possibly the best broadway...well that and Aida come fairly close to the top

So yay for feeling confident about my trig test tomorrow....busy day tomorrow taking a lovely chemistry test at 7 freakin 30 in the mo'nin as well...Randa has pretty much lived in the library this past weekend..next time i'll remember to bring a sleeping bag and a toothbrush....

Black Eyed Peas Concert got cancelled (*tear*) I was so looking forward to it, but on the plus side, i'm $22.50 richer...

I have come to the conclusion that elevators don't like me. Yours truly happened to get stuck once again while attempting to go up the 4th floor of Sparks Hall to get some paperwork done to get my referee check from soccer. It was me and this other girl..and we weren't moving from the first floor...so we opened the door, closed it and this annoying alarm went off...and the doors WOULD NOT OPEN!!! We called the police from the call button and they were coming to get us out...then amazingly after we hung up, the elevator started to move up..Needless to say, i got out on the second floor and climbed 2 more flights of stairs...I mean, geez..i didn't think me, the girl, and my backpack went over the 3000 lb. limit....my backpack might have...but not us... Geez first I get stuck in the elevators in Blackburn and Wilson while my First Year Leaders (YEA Mike Dail and Clayton Clark) took us on a tour around campus our first day and now this....this new technology will end up outsmarting man one of these days....As I was walking out the door, I saw the guy who was coming to save us from the elevator....just a little bit late...i wanted to tell him nevermind, but i guess he found that out on his own

So as much as i complain about crap, i am going to try to not do that anymore...because really...i don't do crap, compared to what other people go through. I just learned that a girl in my math class is 25, has a five-year old daughter, is taking 16 hours of class here at MSU, and works for a factory from 7:00 p.m. to 12:30 a.m. every Monday through Friday......wow....I can't even imagine how difficult it must be for her. She said something that struck me as odd...but true...odd because i'm living it, but true because once you don't have something, you miss it...but she said that if she had more time to study, she would probably be making better grades....So...What the HELL is my excuse?!?!?

The gummi bears that i was eating earlier somehow reminded me of these gummi butterfly candy that someone used to buy for me all the time at the Duty-Free Store....i don't quite remember who bought it or when...or i could be totally making that up.....

My Innih is in the hospital :-( I need to call her...Please pray for my grandmother for her to get better.....I swear it's like Grandmother get sick season....we've had a lot of those with girls from Sigma.....and it's NOT good...NOT GOOD AT ALL.....

on the plus side My Aunt Gwen bought a house!! Yay..and she picked the wedding date!! Exciting :-)

The Sig Eps got their big bros and i'm excited for them :-)

My big got lavaliered!! I'm SUPER-EXCITED for her and Edwin :-)

Well, Randa is going to do one more quick review.....peace out

she had dumps like a truck, truck, truck......

For some reason unknown to me, the Thong Song was stuck in my head all day.... When it comes to random songs bustin out of nowhere...i am QUEEN....I also have the inate capapbility of getting that same stong stuck in people's heads...(muahahahah)

I think those Vera Bradley bags that all the girls are carrying around are SO HIDEOUS...they freakin remind me of a quilt everytime i see them....seriously why would you carry around something so aesthetically unappealing....but apparently it's only me who views it that way....or there could be some that have those bags that think they are ugly but only have them because it's the "cool" thing to have........

I spent my Friday night playing pool....i'm getting better......and i went to go see "What the Butler Saw" Let's just say it was an interesting play...lotsa people in their underwear running around...but hey....just don't ever try to seduce your secretary when you're already married..and you'll be fine. I enjoyed it though and found the irony at the end HILARIOUS...turns out everyone was related somehow....

So today is pretty much study day for me....with just a few hours of sleep that i will get after i post this blog of mine......of course my professors try to screw me over by having exams in my 2 most dreaded classes on the same day.......lovely

Well i'm sure i have more to talk about later...i'm peacing out because it's freakin fo' in the mo'nin

.........

I love it how there's a song for every emotion....well...i found a song to fit my current mood....Simple Plan's "Perfect"

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make itI just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend thatI'm alright
And you can't change me'
Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard Just to talk to you But you don't understand


I'm excited for the much needed Thanksgiving break....but yet at the same time i DON'T want to go home.....*Sigh*................. but i guess i can't keep avoiding him and keep acting scared of him...i'm not...trust me i've been trying just to get him to talk to me.....but honestly it's been three weeks..and this is getting ridiculous. He and my mom don't talk either........and it breaks my heart to think that it's my parents 20th anniversary next week and they probably won't even speak to each other that day..........BLAH It's so sad and just makes me want to cry even more just typing this out....i can't let this affect me but how can i not? I know i have to prove myself to him and i guess that's the only way i can ever get that trust back..but honestly i'm trying..........i don't know what else to do...and it's not even over something HUGE...it's really trivial...in fact you'd probably laugh if i told you the reason why my dad is not speaking to me but to him it's so much bigger than that.....i can see where he's coming from....but at the same time i keep thinking that this whole situation is getting completely out of hand....but of course he won't concede.....because he's NEVER wrong................*SIGH* again............

Good night to all

Thank you to everyone who has touched my life...you may not know it ...but I appreciate everything that you have done for me....if i don't ever get to tell you ...I LOVE YOU

So to be honest....

Do i see myself being a GOOD doctor?
Do i see myself being a GREAT doctor?
Do i see myself being an OUTSTANDING doctor?

Why am i not so sure now.................i could always say ...yea there's a possibility......but if i can only say that....then maybe it was not meant to be........*SIGH*

"I was just guessing numbers and figures..pulling the puzzles apart....questions of science..science and progress....do not speak loud as my heart..."

AH...nobody said it would be easy indeed

I would so marry Frank Sinatra in a heartbeat...only if he'd sing me to sleep.....

Peace out

TODAY

Another windy fall day in Murray, Kentucky...can't believe last week was in the eighties....but it's cool...(literally..haha..) More reason to wear my new Sigma jacket!

Today in my biology freshman orientation class, Dr. Leon Dubuonis-Gray came to speak to us from the department of Parasitology. While everyone was cringing at the slideshows...i was taking notes..i thought it was really interesting....did you know that there are these parasites that can get into your bloodstream that have spikes when they are born just so they can puncture your capillaries and blood cells? And you get them from wading in contaminated water in Africa....and also....if you're pregnant..stay away from cats....they have these cysts that are excreted through their feces...and if somehow a pregnant woman comes into contact with them....the baby will be basically brainless...SO yea...this is something that i may actually want to do someday...sounds random i know..but i'm thinking with that...i could do more humanitarian work.....i really don't know

They have a Christmas tree on the roof of my dorm.....kinda neat cuz you can see it from everywhere..YEA LIZZO!!! They also have wreaths on all the lamps on campus...Way to get into the spirit early! Actually...i'm excited about Christmas....and the cold...i WANT SNOW!!!

I was at dinner tonight and this girl...came up to me and asked if I have yet gone to a Christ Ambassadors meeting ( which is basically like a Christian sorority/cult...) NOt really the people are nice...just that some are....fanatical..like this one in particular..Anyway...i told her i have yet to go and i have been fairly busy with school and sorority (i know lame excuse right..) but she keeps on persisting that i should come check it out..and i'm like well i have a big test tomorrow so i can't come tonight...and she asks me if she can pray for me...i'm like...O ok sure..thinking that she was just saying that...b/c...here..apparently people pray for you when you have...a paper cut....BUT NO...she actually starts praying for me and my test tomorrow!!!................SO........YEA...........talk about embarrassing.....Don't get me wrong..i belive in the power of prayer.....but seriously....it's almost as if prayer is just being used too loosely..... when it comes to tests....it's basically up to you.....OY....first came Brother Jim preaching about how everyone who is in a sorority, is Catholic, and listens to country music...is going to Hell....then the very next day after he left...some old men in suits and hats were handing copies of the New Testament all over campus....and now this...AHHH....Gotta love living in the Bible Belt....(and if that offends you in anyway...then...whatever....think what you must..and i'll think what i want....)

So it's been almost three weeks and my dad has still not spoken to me.....

Oh and btw ...if you're reading this feel free to post a comment on this blog or any other random raving that you have read.....Feedback is always good..there's a little link on the bottom right after you read this that says "Comment".....Click and type away!! Just making sure i'm not wasting my time....why else would i do this online..otherwise it's back to plain ole journaling for me.....

SO peace out playa..and remember: Be careful if you didn't vote, P Diddy (aka Puff Daddy aka Sean Puffy Combs) might put a cap in your a$$. Be on the lookout for a man wearing Sean John and lots of bling.......

Because i'm bored and because they turned the AC off....

So yea...they're messing around with the AC...i got out of the shower and went to my room...and i started sweating...yuck..so now i have the fan on and the window open so i can get some of that nice november cool breeze right next to me.....

First bike: um...probably pink......
First best friend(s): Andrea Aniban, Stella Respicio, and Charmaine Tepace....who...i have not gotten in contact with since i left the PI
First real memory of something: Being the girly girl that i am, i dropped my handkerchief while i was sticking it out the window and playing with it...the breeze just somehow picked it up...it was while we were coming back from my farm and i screamed for my uncle to stop the truck....everyone thought i was hurt...needless to say...they were a little annoyed when they had to backtrack to get my hankie.....
First car: 1995 Mazda Millenia...who unfortunately has experience 3 wrecks all on the same side...so now my brother is driving it...
First date: Um...first real actual date was when i went to go see Spiderman....
First kiss: Hmmmm....Walt Disney World while on a band trip....
First break-up: Nick White....in the 7th grade..but it's cool we're still close friends
First job: Um.....babysitting doesn't really count...i was a soccer referee...but i guess the first "real" job was Backyard Burgers in 2003....
First screen name: RanGoz5....i know original right...
First self purchased album: Monica-Angel of Mine
First funeral: My great aunt Choleng when i was 6 or 7....
First pet: Ali and Brownie...2 mutts..then i had Crystal the parrot..who died because my youngest brother Gian fed it leaves......then i had a Mynah bird who died...
First piercing/tattoo: my ears when i was a few months old
First independent home: Do the dorms count?
First credit card: Mastercard when i was 17...
First true love: My mahal....
First enemy: I don't generally have enemies
First big trip: Transporting from Manila, Philippines, to good ole Jackson, TN, USA
First play/musical/performance: I've always been the star..haha..um..prolly Snow White
First musician you remember hearing in your house: Prolly Sharon Cuneta...a famous Filipina singer..either that or Disney tunes....
last movie seen: Dawn of the Dead on Halloween at the Sig Ep house...
last book read: A Fine Balance by Rohinton Mistry
last cuss word uttered: oh i don't curse *wink wink*
beverage drank: Blue powerade
food consumed:chicken pot pie, roast beef, mashed potatoes, carrots and peas with blue powerade
last crush: Andy Roddick
kiss: October 9, 2004
last phone call: my mahal
last tv show watched: WBBJ NEWS!!! YEA!!!
last time showered: 2 hours ago
last shoes worn: my soccer cleats
last cd played: A mix that includes Coldplay, Jamie Cullum, Sinatra, and Lea Salonga
item bought: Some apple cinnamon oatmeal at Wal-Mart
last downloaded: Jamie Cullum-But For Now
last annoyance: Um....it takes a lot to annoy me...
last disappointment: haha..um chemistry
last soda drank: i dont' drink soda
last ice cream eaten: probably a strawberry fro yo from winslow with strawberry topping and chopped nuts
last time hugged: probably Mikaela as i told her to not hit any more deer driving home to vote
last lipstick used: don't really wear lipstick...i like lipgloss...
shirt worn: my dad's old shirt that says GIL on the right side
last time dancing: Friday night at the Sig Ep Party

Hope you all were enlightened by this post....have a great day tomorrow..yay for me since i dont' have school...and GO VOTE!!! (since i can't)

And in honor of the presidential races..i. leave you with some of Boccaccio's words:

"The person chosen to govern will be at liberty to make whatever arrangements he likes for the period covered by his rule, and to prescribe the place and the manner in which we are to live."

Nothing really profound...just something really obvious...but way to go Boccaccio for saying that....

Well kids that's all for now...peacin outta here

La di dah

Bold what you have done.
01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink 02. Swam with wild dolphins 03. Climbed a mountain04.Taken a Ferrari for a test drive 05. Been inside the Great Pyramid06. Held a tarantula 07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said "I love you" and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watched the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby's diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you could afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you weren't ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day

46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors-(I'm guessing this would still be the Philippines...)
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit-faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan -does Tokyo International Airport count?
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie-haha yay for being a ninja and a moroccan diplomat...
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River -Does a jetboat tour count?
104. Been on the news programs as an "expert" on television-does AD count?
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand (haha not really)
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone1
18. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair of
f120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132a. Called or written your Congress person
132b. Had them write back
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ... more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery wow, that's really weird to think
.139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a TV game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100 mph
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pisto
l156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than US states165. Visited all 7 continents166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days167. Eaten kangaroo meat168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about174. Gotten someone fired175. Gone BACK to school176. Parasailed177. Changed your name178. Petted a cockroach179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad and studied it
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them183. ... and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you184. Taught yourself art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care193. Built your own PC from parts194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you195. Had a booth at a street fair196. Dyed your hair197. Been a DJ198. Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal199. Written your own role-playing game200. Been arrested

Happy All Saints Day

Hope everyone had a lovely Halloween weekend! Friday the actual day was too long but i was the dancing queen that night at the Sig Ep Halloween Party. It was a costume party...but somehow the creative juices weren't flowing...so...i dressed up..as...a shacker...haha...um...but it didn't really work b/c people kept asking me what i was or why i didn't dress up so i just told em i was an athlete....but it was fun..Quailman was there, so was an Oompah Loompah, Minnie Mouse, several George Bushes, and Napoleon Dynamite..and o yea..Josie and the Pussycats..

So this year Halloween happened to fall on a Sunday...which was really weird but there were still several people in costumes..like the lunch lady was dressed up as a witch...i dressed up as a Baby Sigma for our meeting..in fact...all the new girls did..it was really cute..we had shorts on and these granny panties that our lovely ritual chairs made for us...the Sig Eps had something at their house and we all watched Dawn of the Dead...that was pretty ...freaky...gross?...Not even really scary but it was a jumpy and very ..gross movie...i loved the part where that guy's head got blown off...o wait..that was the whole movie pretty much...

So i made an attempt to talk to my dad tonight and he was "busy"........gotcha... that kinda hurt but what can you do.....i even left him a message and told him i missed him but apparently he didn't get that...blah

I'm starting to click with this girl named Mikaela, who is Scott's girlfriend..she's a really sweet Gam...and Tobey who's cool as well...ah...we're going to have fun at formal...

Speaking of formal...i was asked to go...this year the Sig Eps are going to St. Louis to watch Chicago on Broadway! How cool is that...except it's not cool with people...mainly Matt..but that's understandable....I mean..i know he says it's ok..but i really don't think it's ok with him...Mom's kinda skeptical about it..and my dad doesn't even know it yet..mainly b/c the whole not speaking to me thing....which the whole reason of him not talking to me is because i never "talked to him before" but now i try to talk to him then it's not even working...*sigh*.....

Anyway...wakin up early...woo hoo for 8:30 chem classes....i need to talk to my advisor so i can schedule for next semester..but o wait..he's on Sabbatical leave.....absolutely wonderful....

Haha..i played flag football yesterday....it was a random last minute kinda thing b/c they didn't have enough players....Courtney called me at 1:57...the game started at 2......but it was fun..i caught the ball! but they got me..but still! I made contact with the ball!

So yea...peacin out for now